Jealousy

One of the Ten Commandments is, "Thou shalt not envy they neighbor". Which basically means, "Don't be jealous". Well, since I don't lie, I'm not going to pretend like I'm never jealous. Because to be completely and utterly honest, I am constantly jealous. It's not because I'm not grateful for what I have. It's not because I want to live a different life. It's because I'm human. And I'd be astonished if there actually was someone on this Earth who was never once jealous. Because let's be truthful, we all get jealous. It's because we're human.

I get incredibly jealous about every little thing. If I know you, and you're reading this, I know I am absolutely and positively jealous of at least one thing about you. I can only think of maybe two people I know that I'm not at all jealous of. So, if you want to know what I'm jealous of about you, go ahead and ask me. I'll honestly tell you. You'd probably be incredibly surprised.

I get jealous a lot because I have incredibly strong opinions and feelings on things. If I want something, I want it. And if you have it, I am jealous. That's just the way it works. I get jealous over stupid things. If I want to talk to a person and they're even having the smallest conversation with someone else, I envy the person who they're talking to. I'd be incredibly surprised if that never happened to you.

Sometimes I feel bad about how jealous I get. I've always been taught, "Don't be jealous. You're living a wonderful life that some kids aren't, and you should always be grateful, and...". But I am not going to lie and say I never have envy towards anyone. Because I do. And I know for a fact that at least one person reading this right now has felt bad about being jealous. And we really shouldn't.

Everything that you do, everything that you say, everything that you think, all make up who you really are. Everything that you want makes up who you really are, also. When you're jealous, it shows you want something so much to envy someone else for having it. It shows that you really love it. It shows that you really care. That's what makes you more of a person. And when you fully admit that you want it, and you're jealous, it makes you a better person. It really does.