Another Note About My Writing

I don't edit my posts. I don't read over them after I'm done, to see if they sound okay, or if they're grammatically incorrect. I don't think I ever do that, actually, even when writing an essay in English class. So, if anyone reading is a Grammar Nazi like me, disregard my small errors. I try to catch any serious spelling mistakes and not be repetitive, etc., but sometimes there are one or two slip-ups. Sorry about that. But I don't edit my posts for two reasons:

First, all year long, our English teacher has been attempting to drill into our minds to have a certain "voice" when writing, and not sound like any other writer you could find anywhere. I've been intensely working on that, because in English, I haven't quite found my "voice" also while sticking to the kind of mechanics she wants us to use in our essays. In order to have any kind of "voice" on this blog, I just have to write. Actually, type. Type anything that comes to mind, and just keep typing until I've run out of words to say. Every single thing you read on here comes from me, and my life, unless I say different. Nothing you will ever read on here is edited, or proof-read. I just type it, and hit that little PUBLISH button in the top right corner of my screen. Then, boom. Whoever wants to read what I have to say is welcome to, errors and all.

The second reason I don't edit my posts is because of this thing I like to call, "The Zone". I get in this zone when I'm writing, or more commonly, reading. It may sound cheesy/stupid when you hear me attempt to describe it, but it is what it is. So. Basically it's, when I'm reading a book, literally everything fades away. Everything. You're just there, reading the book. Turning the pages, looking at words. Totally involved in the book, or the story. You can't exactly SEE what's going on, (or at least I can't), but you can FEEL it. When something bad happens, your heart starts racing, and you get scared or anxious. When something is romantic or something happy, you smile. When something is revealed, you feel relief, and can stop holding your breath. That only happens to me in a good book. And I can't SEE the characters, because I'm not a visual person. What things look like on the outside doesn't matter to me. You can go, in detail, about the colors, smells, sizes, shapes, textures, anything, and it won't matter to me. I don't necessarily care about being dropped into the middle of a situation. I, myself, care about feeling things. Having different emotions. I don't care what color a person's hair is if they're depressed and hanging themselves. I like when I can learn from a story. I like when I can be moved, or changed, because of a work of fiction. They don't move me when they explain that the curtains were a "deep, dark gray, much like the sky during a thunderstorm." They move me when something happens. Emotion is felt. And when I can feel it also. The same thing happens when I'm writing. I don't want to waste time with describing what things look like, unless it's important. I want to get to the feelings that were shown, the things that make a memorable story memorable. So I don't edit to change things so it sounds better. I don't break that zone I'm in until I'm done, and it's posted. Then, the next day, I'll read it with fresh eyes. I'll either say, "That was what I spent 10 minutes writing?" or, "That was exactly how I wanted to put it." And even if it is the first one, that's okay. That's what I thought at the time. Maybe someone will get it.

So that's basically what I wanted to say. I don't really understand the point of some of these posts, (this one, for example), but, as I've said before, maybe you'll learn something new. Maybe you'll look at somethings differently. If you know me, maybe you'll look at me differently.